Not Feeling This

Moses isn’t feeling this.

We, all of us, move because of value. Moving toward one thing and away from another because of the value represented in the thing.

Value is experienced viscerally. It’s in the pit of our stomachs, or in the muscles in the back of our necks. It’s in the wobbling of our knees and in the pounding of our chests.   Something like this is always at the bottom of what makes us move.

Nobody is listening. So Moses feels rejection. But not just rejection, he feels the tension, his staff is heavier, his shoulders feel heaved and forward, and his head is drooped so that he can’t even look up to heaven.

It’s always a value embrace.

Sometimes the only thing worse than obedience is disobedience.